Trusting YouTubers

If you are active on YouTube, Tumblr or Twitter you must have come across the news about the accusation of a couple of Youtubers of abuse. I won’t name these guys because I don’t feel I know enough about them and I certainly do not want to add to the rumours and the stress these accusations have caused. I do want tell you about my reaction when I heard of this because it had quite a big impact on me.

My first reaction upon hearing the news was disgust. I wanted to unsubscribe from the ones I was following and do like the others did, wail about how bad and awful and disgusting these people where. Of course this is not an acceptable reaction. I tried to take a step back and get more information on this matter. You shouldn’t (I shouldn’t have) made a conclusion based on one piece of information and one source. While I read a couple more blog posts on Tumblr about the accusations and the feelings of the victims and other people with a view on the matter it became clear to me that there is more than one side of this story. Some people were blatantly lying and some others were trying to make it ok. There were so many conflicting views that I started to believe everyone was lying. That’s when I stopped reading.

I’d completely lost trust in the people of the internet, some of who I see as friends. Who are you to trust if everyone is trying to get his or hers opinion out in the open for everyone to see? How do you know the person is showing who he or she really is on camera and not abusing someone behind the scenes? And how do you know if these victims are actually abused or just trying to get attention? You will probably never be able to tell. I’m the kind of girl to believe in the good in people. I want to give everyone a second chance. I decided to discard the matter for now. That does not mean I’m ignoring it. I’m not unsubscribing from these YouTubers yet, I’m gathering more information and I’m trying to keep my opinions to myself as long as it’s not clear who has done what. Some accused YouTubers have posted blogs that they are truly sorry and very ashamed. I decided to believe them, give them the benefit of the doubt for now.

I’m still having a hard time with this entire situation especially because it’s still an ongoing business. I’m trying to keep my faith in these people though. I’ve been watching some of them for quite some time and it is therefore quite hard to believe that they aren’t turning out to be those people. If it turns out they have done what they have been accused of, I will most likely unsubscribe. Because abuse is wrong, in all situations and in every condition. All I can do for now, all we can do, is wait for the truth.

I will look different to every YouTuber from now on. I will not put them on a pedestal anymore and it will certainly take a longer time for them to gain my trust. There are still some YouTubers I do trust and am certain of them being good people. But any new YouTuber I’ll follow in the future will have to do with lesser trust on my side. How do you feel about the image on top of this post? Have you noticed these posts on Tumblr? Did you, like me, always trust YouTubers on their word?

Until next time,



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Valueing Valentine’s Day

So I kind of forgot about writing yesterday and today, so this blog will be a bit messier than my other blog posts so far. I hope you don’t mind.

I think it’s very hard to  forget or try to ignore that today is Valentine’s day. I’m not even going to try to ignore it. This post will be about what I think of this red and pink day.

When I was a bit younger, say 15 or so, I hated Valentine’s day. I was the kind of girl who wanted roses and cards but never received them. My friends back then send each other cards, but I don’t really remember getting them myself. Maybe I’ve forgotten about it, but I’m pretty sure I never got a card or rose. I’m also fairly sure I’m not the only one who never received anything. When I was 15 it was hard and it made me sad. I valued Valentine’s day too much. Maybe it was because things like that matter when you’re teenager, eager for attention and appreciation.

I’m 19 now and even though I realized today was Valentine’s day, I think I only really noticed twice today. The first time when I got a coupon for 1 + 1 free coffee on my way to the subway, and the second time when my friends sent me ‘happy valentine’s day’ messages. I accepted the coupon with grace and sent some messages back to my friends and that’s pretty much my Valentine’s day. I understand some people bicker about the meaning of Valentine’s day and the consumerism it portrays but I don’t think that’s what they are really complaining about. They are thinking about their 15 year old selves who never received any cards. They are thinking about the days they thought Valentine’s day was important and that it was crucial to at least get roses or cards.

I have grown out of that mind-set a long time ago and moved on. The people who still feel self-conscious about this may need to reconsider why they are angry or upset. Isn’t Valentine’s day traditionally a nice day? It’s a day much like Thanksgiving in my opinion. It’s about appreciating the ones you love and actually saying it out loud or showing it to them. I spend Valentine’s day appreciating my friends. My best friend and I sent each other cards this year. I love her and she loves me and we don’t say it too often. We took the chance to say it out loud and not feel self-conscious or awkward about it. It may not be the targeted romance for this day, but love is love right?

Valentine’s day means something different for almost everyone. Do you feel it’s useless consumerism? Do you think it’s a wonderful day full of love? Did you send someone a card? Let me know in the comment section!

Until next time,


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