Blank Paper Panic

Writing is hard. That first moment when I open a new, clean sheet of virtual paper is a moment of sheer panic sometimes. I know I want to fill the entire sheet with words, but what words? What will I write about, what will my characters say if I tell a story? Will they be as amazing as I pictured them? I mostly end up not writing at all. And that, dear reader, is about to change.

I consider myself a writer. Yet as I recently discovered about myself, I don’t write all that often. Actually, I write only once a year, during November. More specifically, I only write 50,000 words, during November, when I participate in National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo). ‘Well,’ I said to myself, ‘fine writer you are!’. This seems true. How can I be a writer when I just don’t write all that much? This fact is one of the most prominent reasons I’ve started this blog. I like to write shorter stories. They allow me to tell the things I want to say without filling empty sheets of paper with useless ramblings, as often happens to me during my writing spree in November. I like to put something useful down, something you won’t waste your time with, something that will make you feel inspired. A blog will certainly help me achieve that goal.

Being a writer comes in two parts. The first part is important, namely that you should have ideas and the ability to write down words and stories. The second part is even more important. The second part is actually doing it. You can be an amazing story inventor, with superb story twists and structured characters, but if you don’t write it down there will never be anyone to tell you you are an amazing story teller.

This is exactly what I’m practicing right now. I need to quit in only thinking about my ideas and start writing them down.  Now don’t let me deceive you, my stories, my blog posts, won’t be perfect. They’ll have flaws. I might be too serious at times or too shallow. I might make grammatical errors (because English is not my native tongue) and I might not make sense occasionally. I hope you’ll read through that and I hope you, as my reader, will take the time to respond and tell me what I did wrong. Feedback is one of things that will help me improve my writing. Feedback will make me write better and it will make me strive to make them better. I’m a perfectionist at heart and knowing that my writings aren’t perfect is a thorn in my eye, so PLEASE, feedback is appreciated.

It seems I’ve conquered the panic for my first blog post. My job now is to remain brave and keep filling the sheets of paper with my words, I hope, of inspiration. I’d love to know what you thought of my first blog post and how you deal with ‘blank-paper-panic’.

Until next time,

Vanya

(Image from http://familyhw.com/2012/09/write-on-the-power-of-putting-pen-to-paper/ )

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